Friday, February 11, 2005

Crying, kissing and boredom

This post is a bit of a mixed bag really; I give you the story of my life! No seriously you all know what’s been happening in my life recently so I’ll not bore you with details again, I’m at home and very, very bored again. Today is the first day I’ve been left on my own all day so I thought I’d utilise the time and write a new post, a post which got it’s title from a song I am currently listening to, but a title which is also quite appropriate.
Firstly: crying. A lot of crying has been going on round here recently, on my part and the parts of others – both of which were induced by me, not purposely I might add. Ever been suspected of something, but now openly asked? Well that’s what’s happening to me currently, if people just ask it’d be a hell of a lot easier, and less painful I think. Anyway you should all keep smiling because right now, smiling and happiness sounds like heaven to me.
Secondly: kissing. It’s nearly Valentines Day, that day that is so commercialised – it’s almost like Christmas. I’m not a fan personally, but then I would be cynical since I’ve no one to share it with. I don’t know, maybe it makes sense when you have someone to give you soppy cards and roses, or to give them to – Gordon? Is it bearable? I’ve only ever received one card and that was when I was 8 anyway, cards from my Dad don’t count – since he gives them to his girlfriends too.
Thirdly: Boredom. I’ve kinda already covered this, I’ve been home all week – in various beds all the while. Still it was a good opportunity to write I guess, I wrote a lot of stuff. I can’t make up my mind if it’s a good thing to be left with your thoughts or not. Lying down on your own there’s nothing to do but think – analyse everything, everything I’ve done and everything I want to do, all my thoughts are there with me – and there were a fair few bad ones. I think it’s bad because I almost went stir – crazy being trapped with only myself and my notebook and pen to share all these contemplation’s with.
Lastly: I just want to publicly announce, to all …5 of you, how much I congratulate Dame Ellen MacArthur on successfully circumnavigating the globe, alone – a woman who must know a lot about being with her thoughts after 71 days at sea. Words can’t really describe how much I admire her.

Keep living x x x

4 comments:

Stagestruckgal said...

i couldnt agree more. she is very good. but then she did have someone to talk to, she was on the net everynight. and a navy boat waved as the went past. but i see what ya mean. why have you been bed-ridden? bless ur cotton socks! I'll post soon. ttfn

Stagestruckgal said...

niki, please go to http://theaward.uk-host.org.uk
because i can see im gonna be the onl girl on the admin team, and u r a reliable person, arent u? oh, do u even know what im talking about?
Well, The 50th Anniversary celebrations, we are trying to organise a weekend for dofe'rs, and theres 4 of us on the admin team at the mo. But im the only girl. one of em wants to meet up at a camp for the team admins only, and i might feel a bit overawed if its just me as a female participant! Apart from the fact were trying to get as many people from different places as poss in. please email me wen u get this post! Thanks. laura

Nodders said...

I feel so bad for you that you're not having a great time over the past months. Things have a way of sorting themselves out. Honest. That's not just in the movies. They stole that from us folk in real life!

As for Valentines Day, well, I suppose you have to be on the right side of it to appreciate it. Personally, today was the first time I got a card since I was nine, so I was very happy! It's only a commercial thing if you see it that way, otherwise, it's a day that people can express their feelings in public and an excuse for over-blown romantic gestures. Not that I think it should be limited to a day. Sure, the shops cash in on it. The shops created Mother's Day, but you can't say that it's a bad idea because your mum deserves a second birthday! It's the same with Valentines; you just wanna treat them. I'm sorry for going on; your turn will come soon enough! Trust me! That's not just in the movies either!

Stagestruckgal said...

Thanks for visiting the site i mentioned in the last post, what do you think? im not sure about anything yet and im on the promo team! eep. well i kinda did ask for it, mentioning i can do basic secretarial stuffs. but anyways, you know. errrrm, i think i bit off more than i can chew at this point. but i dont know whether i can back down a bit now! never mind. ill post soon.