Friday, November 21, 2008

Blog Control

Well hello everyone. I found myself with many things to say over the past week, but somehow stopped myself - as though I was afraid of being judged. Which is odd as I don't ever recall being judged badly in the history of this blog. It's also annoying as now I don't think I've anything to say. 
I love this time of year so much... the cold bites and the wind stings but I somehow manage to feel quite secure. Cosy even. This is a drastic change to how I've previously felt... things always seemed to go wrong and everything felt bleak. I think the change has just coincided with me trying to teach myself that I can't live for everyone else... it just isn't possible. 
One thing I will miss is Guernsey... and my friends. It's been so long since I've seen them and I do often feel like I have none left. But again this time of year reminds me that I do have so many people close to me... even if their closeness is not physical.
I know what I meant to write... a '100 things about Niki' list, sort of like Carmi did. But now I'm just not sure there are that many things to say about me.

4 comments:

Carmi said...

I'm willing to bet that there are far more than 100 neat things about your life that you'd like to share.

Once you get started, it kind of takes on a life of its own. When I wrote mine, I kept it in a little journal and added to it whenever inspiration hit.

I look forward to reading your list!

Awareness said...

Hey Niki

I did mine last December after I read Carmi's and he's right. Once you start going it flows very quickly actually. I was quite surprised and it was fun to do....I approached it like a stream of conciousness exercise much like poetry.

Niki said...

:) cool thanks Carmi, I think it's something I shall have to put thought into but I seem to be able to chug out the odd bit of literature so surely facts about myself should go okay.

Thanks Dana...watch this space!

Rainbow dreams said...

Look forward to reading it if you do... :)
friends and places will always be there. It's one thing I have been valuing about facebook, as superficial as it might seem, it does keep those connections alive and close.
So true, we can only really live for ourselves, x