You know what I want now more than anything? More than anything in the entire world?
I want to be able to talk, in person, about me. I want to not be afraid and run off whenever the subject of me is brought up. I want to be myself in anyone's prescence. I want everyone to know and see my arms littered with scars. I want to cure everyone's depression. I want to look good and know I look good. I want to sail around the world. I want to be in love, not just loved by someone. I want to not cry every morning. I want to not cry everynight. I want to write an entire book about everything that I've crammed into 17 years. I want to wear sleeveless tops and not be stared at. I want people to see beyond my scruffiness. I want people to not think I'm just a stereotypical teenager, because I'm not. I want to be enveloped in beauty.
About Me
- Nikita
- I'm Nikita and I'm whatever you want me to be. I am a bipolar nothing. A student with no course. I am a writer and a critic. I'm a southerner who strayed north. I read with closed eyes. I take anti-psychotics and mood stabilisers and anti-depressants. My arms are littered with scars. I'm a dreamer who woke up. I am in love. aloha x
My first ever award, Thank you Patricia!
3 comments:
niki i love your blog. you are not a stereotypical anything.
you are definately not a stereotypical person, Niki. No-one is. Everyone is beautiful in their own right. you are beautiful, you are individual, things will come right. honest. *hugs*
*envelopes in Beauty*
*sends to Santa Claus*
*curses loudly, as Gordon realises that Beautiful Niki is now on her way to lapland, while Gordon's wish list for a pony this year has been left to carry on blogging, which is really just a silly prospect*
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