A few days ago I drove myself to the doctors for the very first time. I have never driven our new car on my own and I felt so good about it that as soon as I got home, I went out again to pick up my prescription! The best part of it all was that William said he was proud of me. I'm still buzzing from that.

Today baby and I went into town on our own as William went out to play paintball with some friends for the day. We caught the bus and had a good look around, baby was as good as gold and again I felt like my confidence is getting better and better. I was worried that I couldn't cope on my own but now I know I can it really makes me feel stronger.

Finally my life seems to have a point. I not only have a loving fiance whom I will love forever and a day, but a beautiful baby boy who is mine to treasure and love.

My beautiful little man is perfect. And all I want is for him to be happy and safe.

In light of this I pledge to always take my medication... no matter what the voices say.

I pledge to talk to William when I am down and struggling.

I pledge to believe and trust William over the voices.

Here's to life as a mummy!

New Beginnings

On Wednesday 22nd December 2010 at 7:11am I gave birth to a little boy by emergency caesarean section.

That's right... I'm a mummy!

Our beautiful little boy is doing well, we've been home since Christmas Eve and we're enjoying everyday with our perfect son.

I still can't believe that I had a hand in making such a gorgeous little man.