Saturday, October 10, 2009

I seem to be settling into a pattern of not writing titles. I just can't get on with them, they won't pop into my head anymore... similarly my Facebook and Twitter updates are suffering. Do you mind? I guess the point of a title is to give you a little clue as to what I'm going to write about - but you all know by now what I write about so I'm sure you can manage without a title. It wouldn't be funny anyway.

The tablets I am currently on seem to be doing wonders (Olanzapine 10mg & Lamotrigine 75mg) - I was worried with the weight issues surrounding the Olanzapine but it seems to be having an opposite effect on me... my appetite is diminishing by the day and I can't even finish a meal... not that this is a particularly bad thing since I ballooned on the Quetiapine of a few months ago.
Lamotrigine is not licenced to treat bipolar in the UK, but is used as an off-label mood stabiliser - despite being marketed as an anti-convulsant used in the treatment of epilepsy.

I feel a lot more stable and my sleep has evened out too - getting about 8/9 hours a night which is a pretty good level for me as sleep is an integral part of my mood. When I panic it is for a few minutes at most and when I'm depressed it passes relatively quickly too. As for the self-harm... that happens occasionally still but to a much lesser degree than a few years ago.

This has turned into one of those sickening 'I'm fine' posts. I don't want to sound like I'm gloating to others of you suffering... I just think that this blog works best when I'm being honest and open with you all. It's the only hope I have of really helping someone.


Awareness said...

Wonderful news Niki. I could feel your smile all the way through your post.

Nikita said...

:) Thanks Dana

much2ponder said...

Hi Niki, it has been a while since I have spend time reading or even posting. I don't know what happens to me. I think it might be seasonal, but there are times when the computer is the last place I should be. I lost interest in writing. Seriously, I had no desire to write, share or read for months, but it seems to be changing now and I feel more like checking in now and again. I am glad to hear you are doing better and I am sorry I have not stopped by sooner.

swile67 said...

i'm glad you found meds that are mom has been off her meds for the first time i can remember and it hasn't been good...she is soo "high" has been difficult for us as a family to deal with this high...hopefully she will be back on her meds and live will get back to some sort of normal...all the best!

Nikita said...

No problem Patricia; welcome back! Hope you begin to enjoy writing again.

Thanks Karyne - I hope your Mum improves soon. I don't know why we stop our meds sometimes, I can only imagine what our families go through. Hang in there.